I felt the need to post this today because I’m feeling extra lucky.

There’s a pair of sandals that I’ve been wanting to buy for weeks. The only problem is that it doesn’t come in my size. I was told that if my desired size isn’t on display, then it is not available. I kept visiting Payless in the hope that some new stocks will arrive. It was unlikely to happen since those sandals were already on sale, which means that the store was probably trying to get rid of their old stocks.

Weeks passed and still nothing. I’ve tried checking online to see if it’s available elsewhere. To my dismay, it wasn’t available in the Payless website or in eBay.

Yesterday, my sister and I passed by Payless and I didn’t really browse the aisles thoroughly since I had already given up on my search. Then my sister pointed out to me that the sandals I wanted IN MY SIZE was available. And it was cheaper too.

O_O

Wow. I was really happy about that.

Now, I’ve been eyeing another pair of blue pumps for over a month. Since it cost P1,250, I didn’t really want to buy it at that price. I was hoping that it would go on sale someday. Every time I would go to Payless, I would try on those blue pumps. I must have tried them on like 10 times.

TODAY, I FINALLY GOT TO BUY THEM!

Wheeee!

Guess for how much?

P400.

When I got inside the store, there was nothing to indicate that those shoes were on sale. I told my friends that I would buy these if they were on sale. A salesperson overheard me by chance and told me that these were actually on sale. WHAT.

Yesterday – sandals.

Today – blue pumps.

AM I LUCKY OR WHAT?

Nothing is worse than seeing the look of disappointment on someone’s face. It just makes me feel worthless and incompetent.

What’s worst is that I’m being compared to someone else, I think. Someone who I know is more incompetent than me (let’s call him/her Person B) and yet receives praise. I don’t get it. Or maybe I don’t want to get it.

You know what I want to do? Bonk Person A on the head. (Person A is the one who does the praising blah) I mean like if you’re going to treat me differently, then at least have the decency to hide it and not display it in front of me.

Wait, I change my mind. The look of annoyance is much, much worse. Because now, I feel like an insect that someone just wants to squash. Ouch.

It’s like a play. The whole world is up there on stage while I’m sitting there as part of the audience. I feel like I don’t have control over my own life. It’s passing by so fast but I feel like I haven’t really done anything yet. It’s like I’m in a fast moving train to nowhere and I don’t know when or how to get off.

I also feel like everything around me has made me who I am. My parents, friends, society, the environment, etc. I wonder if I would still be the same person if I wasn’t influenced by them. That’s why I want to try living in a whole new environment different from what I have now. I’m pretty sure I won’t be the same person. And if that’s the case, are we really who we are? Or are we merely just adapting to the environment while our real self is kept hidden?

You know what I want? I want to experience brain trauma.

Not your ordinary kind of brain trauma that just involves bleeding and maybe possible death. No, I want the kind that gives you a special ability right after.

You’re all probably saying, what?

But it is possible though. I just saw National Geographic’s My Brilliant Brain and it showcased this man who had cerebral hemorrhage and was able to gain artistic abilities right after that incident.

I envy him. I also want to be artistic! I want my brain to be on autopilot and create ingenious artwork by itself. Sadly, my current brain isn’t capable of that.

Another reason is that I want to have a near-death experience. They say it changes your life. After having a little brush with death, maybe then will I start to LIVE.

1.) Kevjumba – His videos are amazingly funny and entertaining. He was the reason why I signed up in YouTube in the first place. He is adorable but a tad too young for me. Haha! I would recommend watching this and this.

2.) HappySlip – Her videos are also a must-see. She recently just visited the Philippines and I wish I could have met her but her videos about her tour here in the Philippines would have to do. Watch this and this.

3.) WongFu Productions – These guys are so incredible. They add a lot of meaning and depth to their videos. All of their work is creative and it doesn’t hurt that Philip and Wes are good looking. =p Some of my favorites: Yellow Fever and Nice guy. Oh, did I mention they’re just about the right age? Haha! =p

4.) Sungha Jung – This 11-year old child is a guitar prodigy! Just watch him play to believe.

5.) Marie Digby – Her voice is wonderful and her lyrics are remarkable. Watch her here.

Do you guys have other recommendations? =)

I can’t believe it. I can’t think of anything. I have to rack up my brain for this topic.

A cliche answer would be my parents taking care of me, blah blah, but that’s already obvious. If I were to choose someone else other than my family, then it would be….

10 minutes later…….. (literally)

Okay, I really can’t think of anything. How pathetic is that? I mean, of course there are occasional small kind things people have done to me like taking me home or helping me out. It counts for something but I have to think of the kindEST thing. For me, that means something BIG like paying for my tuition or helping me build a business, etc.

So for now, I would have to disregard this topic. I don’t know why I chose it in the first place. It seemed like a good one except for the fact that I have nothing to write about it.

Top: Ghost deck, Masters deck

Bottom: Vintage Deck

These cost around $5 each from Ellusionist. I would order them if there was no international shipping fee of $10!! The shipping fee costs more than the cards themselves! Nevertheless, I am happy that I already own a Viper black deck from Ellusionist (picture below). I’m gonna collect these decks when I have the money.

Another thing I want:

MAC 187 Duo Fibre Brush =)

costs around p2700+. pricey!